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I have been trying to think about what I can write about today,, I really do live a very mundane life. I don’t have children to go on and on about and tell a zillion stories (nothing wrong with those who do but I don’t have any to join that club). I am an EXTREME introvert, I enjoy being home and not very good at going out into the world just to mingle with others. However, I did have a rather interesting epiphany last night as I was trying to fall asleep (yes my mind is always running). I remembered reading a self-help book (not sure which one, I read A LOT of them) about being kind to yourself. The book stated how you should give yourself a pep talk in your mirror every morning and end with telling yourself, “I love you.” I being a shy person have to giggle at the thought of doing this and the embarrassment if Jason walked in to see me doing this.. but thinking further on this I did a little test on myself by saying I was going to say 3 things about myself as fast as I can without thinking about it. So, there I am lying in bed and I say to myself, “now fast say 3 things about yourself without thinking” 1. Fat 2: boring 3” ugly,,,,OMG is this really my self-image? I have thought this way about myself for so long that I have conditioned myself to believe this heart and soul.. No matter how many times I hear people say “I love your dimples” and the most hated thing a fat girl to be told “you have such a pretty face” , “I love your smile” “Your such a caring person” I don’t believe them because I believe I am fat, boring and ugly. Why is it that I would get upset if my family or friends would say this about themselves but it is ok for me to say this about me? Why don’t I value my self-worth the way I want others to value theirs? So saying 3 nice things to myself every morning doesn’t seem so silly and not much to giggle at. Starting first thing tomorrow morning I will say 3 positive things about myself until I stop thinking I am lying to actually believing it.